I had decided to stop writing, especially about my experience. So many things were going on around me and so many things were going on inside me, that I was not ready to talk about it. Definitely not publicly. I started accepting that this was my year and it was okay to not write about it every week to tell everyone what I was doing. I was trying to be okay with not sharing it. However, it has been a while since I said anything at all and I wanted to try it once more to see how I felt about it this time. So here I am.
I have lived in Watertown, Wisconsin for almost 6 months now. It’s very very cold. 🙂
On some days, getting out of bed is the hardest part of my existence in this cold state, and on some days when after weeks of cloudy weather the sun comes out despite it being 27 degrees Fahrenheit, I bring myself to love it. The other day, I went cross country skiing with my AFS exchange friends. I was terrified the night before it and thought I was going to cry even before I started skiing. Wind and ice are not my best friends. The only reason I kept going was because I knew I wasn’t going to be able to do something like this when I came back home to Ahmedabad and that it was going to be an experience I would remember, whether good or bad. 20 seconds of insane courage, I put myself out there and something great came out of it. Yes, after about 35 minutes, my bum didn’t feel as good as it did before because hey, ice is not my best friend. I forced myself to get back up and keep going and I did. It was honestly, the happiest I have been in a while. I remember stopping for a moment, looking up at the clear sky and then looking down around me as the snow fell to the ground. The snow had never looked more beautiful to me. My friend Prosper from Nigeria, accompanied me while skiing the whole time and while we talked about our countries and fell on the ground and then talked about whether or not to just give up on it and then fell on the ground again, I have to say, it was a fun time.
I have joined the forensics team and unlike the meaning of forensics that we are all familiar with, forensics here is public speaking aka, my whole life. It’s nice to see the different forms of public speaking that they offer here and not in India.
Yes I have put on more weight and when my best friend Lucia was sleeping over at my house the other night she said to me “Gaurvi its okay! We are on an exchange. You are gaining weight and I am losing money. Not a big deal”. That really hit me and that’s when I stopped caring about it and went up to the kitchen with Lucia at 12:30 am to get Cheezits and Coca Cola. The same night, Lucia tried on my Indian “Lehenga” and obsessed about it incessantly. She doesn’t know this yet, but she is probably going to get to keep that. She made me click pictures of her in it and sent those pictures to my friend back in India because she was so ecstatic. She’s annoying and I don’t understand her sometimes because of her latina attitude and accent but she’s also kind of a good person sometimes and buys me food sometimes – I like that.
The Snow Dance is coming up this Saturday and I’m going with my friends Ana and Carlee. It’s nice to go with them because I love them so much but I don’t always get to hang out with them and we might have a sleepover after that which is greaaaaaaaaaaat because that means I get to spend all night with Maddie(Ana’s dog).
I’m in study hall right now as I write this in the library, which is suddenly my favorite place in second semester. I have a Philosophy class in second semester which I’m most excited about. Our first essay was probably the essay I’ve most loved working on. That essay was an excuse for me to see my Favorite movie, Les Mis while I ate Oreo Cheesecake that my dad brought our family from the Cheesecake Factory in Madison. I can tell that my family has picked up on my Cheesecake obsession and continue to spoil me.
I can’t put months of the events that took place in my life, all together right now, but like I said, I’m only doing this to see how I feel about it again. So there. Study hall is almost over and I’m just going to post this now. Hello. Welcome to my life again, I guess.
My life filled with chaos and waffles.
That last line always makes my friend Laurence laugh till his face goes red, he’s weird.